My Thoughts..

I wonder why do people jump into a relationship..
Do people think about the consequences of the relationship?
Or do they simply just wana enjoy the process because they both enjoy each other's company?
Do we often have an idea how things will turn out down the road?
Or do we have an end in mind to work towards to?
Or simply not sure where we are heading?
And often fill our heads with doubts and questions about the future?

Do people change?
Am I changing?
I hope I am changing for the better..
And I hope that someone can change for me..

Please do know that you have to be appreciative of what you have,
and to treasure the people around you..
for you can't forsee what happens in the future..

Its really not easy to find someone who truly cares for you..
So when you do find someone who truly loves you..
Treasure her like you've never done before..
Before she slips off your fingers like sand that flies off with the wind..

No idea how long it will take..

No idea how painful is it going to be..

No idea how tough will it make me stronger..

No idea how great my future lies within my reach..

No idea how this ordeal is going to make me a better woman..

I will overcome these..

Give me some time..

Though the damage has been done..

Wounds take time to heal..

No matter how long it is going to take..

Give me the strength to trust myself..

For no one can help me except myself..

Self-Reflection....


There's more things in life than to hang on to something that doesn't belong to you..

People come and go in our lives..but only those that treasures our presence leave footprints in our hearts..

Life is too complicated that we often wouldn't have answers to questions that we've been thinking about them long and hard...

We tend to forget about the good things that happened to us whenever a setback comes along in life.. and makes us feel like the world is falling apart...

There are bound to be crossroads in our lives that we have to make a choice to walk straight, turn left or turn right, or turn back..but it takes more effort and energy to turn back for fear of reaching this crossroad again...

Remember those that come into our lives whenever we needed someone to fall back on during tough times because what goes around, comes around... it's true...

There are no shortcuts in life, but only patience and hardwork to guide us along rocky roads which seem to be overwhelming at times...

All we need is a guardian to show us the way but to pave our own paths, we need to stay focus and begin a journey with an end in mind...

You can't force someone to love you but you can make sure you love yourself first before learning how to love someone...

Was FREAKED out today at work.

It was a mundane day at work, busy clearing emails from last friday, trying to finish up my work today, preparing for coming Thursday's Audit. sigh. Had to attend an internal audit class as well, and mind you, there's an exam for it, on FRIDAY. Too much things has been bothering me recently, and I'm kind of trying to weave through these things, hoping one day that things will juz turn out well. You know... like.. " The Law of Attraction"

There, my stomach feels achy after lunch that consist of Vege and vege and more vege and rice. So I thought, its only normal. So I went to the loo hoping to clear my stomach, and I saw a pool of blood in the toilet bowl. For a second, I thought I was going to DIE. Those yucky toilet papers damped with BLOOD? I wanted to scream HELP. What the hell is going on man? Is it me that's really having too much things on my mind? Think too much and give myself emotional stress? Eww.

Luckily, there isn't a reoccurrence. Phew. Went to the gym to really sweat out. Completed 5 km in 37 minutes? =) Good start for the preparation for Oct's Great Eastern's Women's Run, and also Amore's Women's Day Out. Yippee!! I mean, and also Standard Chartered Race in Dec. Hur Hur. But that's like only 10km not the 42km. Haha. I'm not that insane afterall..

More updates to come once I get hold of the Photos at Rox's wedding!

13 September marks a special day for my dearest colleague, Roxanne, and her husband Jerry.. I've witnessed their wedding when vows were exchanged, and their love for each other was well blessed by God and everyone that attended the wedding...Love amazes me so much that I feel, it's beyond words to describe.. Though I've just came to know her 3 months back, somehow, there was a special connection between us that made us able to share secrets with one another and talk about anything under the sun..

Weddings are joyous and pretty much something to look forward to.. During the March-in by the bride and the groom, there was this sudden surge of overwhelming emotions that rose within me.. It brought back memories that were attempting its way to bury themselves.. There, it brought me tears when everyone cheered and applauded for the blessed couple. Rox eyes were filled with tears of joy, having to walk down this aisle after a long awaited journey..

But most importantly, they both knew what they wanted, and they work hard for it. There are many ups and downs in life that you have to go through, sometimes it may be painful, sometimes it may be gladful.. Who knows what the future brings? Yet sometimes, life is full of complications which no one really knows what's the exact explanation for it.. There's no point dwelling on the past but to realise your mistakes and accept your failures.. It's true.. It might be simple to say, but if you really put your actions to it, it's tougher than you can imagine..

Roxanne and Jerry: I give you my utmost blessing for this marriage ok? =) Not any lesser.. Hehe

SORRY!

Hi Blog, sorry I've been neglecting you..I realise I was in the wrong for not sharing with you my life..I'll make up to you ok!

First up: for those who are interested to know what have I been up to lately..FYI, I've started work and joined the 9-5 working crowd at a company that's entirely different from what I study in sch..Well.. that's the reality!! You never really get what you really want --> as a matter of fact. I've been adjusting to working life for the past 3+ weeks, coming to realise that I'm almost one mth into the company! OH MAN.. time flies~~~ Money.. is really hard to earn.. But good enough to think that I'm amidst the few that have already found a job! *HEHE* meaning....I get to pamper myself first!

I like my company's culture, I like my colleagues and I like to be kept busy at work (which is what I'm doing now), I like to learn new things everyday (which is what I'm achieving from work). Sounds like the perfect job! Oh well, I sound more like I'm being extremely optimistic. Well..from the book 'The Law of Attraction', seems like I'm grasping the moral of the story quite fast...

But working..means earning more money..means increasing spending power..which means..it's not very good either! I almost did a very impulsive move of buying a Gucci wristlet that cost omfg 550 sing. Lucky the better side of me overcome the evil side of me to splurge! But I'm really enjoying the benefits of an employee at my company: 10 dollars a year for unlimited access to any Planet Fitness (pay me for helping to advertise =p). Good right! I've went to try out their kickboxing classes and I really enjoy it v much! To shake of that flabby and loose meat..and seeing an auntie in my class wearing only a sports bra, showing of that 6 pacs she has, really makes me drool with envy!! I will work hard!! Even no 6 pacs, maybe I'll have erm 2? hAha. I like their facilities, with steam bath and jacuzzi. Feels damn pampered man..

Went to watch Kungfu Panda with Xav darling at Suntec coz its a company event and I get 50% off the tix. Happy! I miss Master Wu Gui and the fatty panda hAha. *bounce bounce* Darling flew off to Indonesia yesterday morning, and I'm missing him! 3 weeks! Oh man..hope it passes by quickly! Even though I managed to survive 9 mths without him, I feel I still need him by my side although we've been together for so long!

ok..enough of him..if not it'll stir up more emotions.
Well well.. work wise, I'm glad my colleagues couldn't tell I'm a fresh grad. Haha. They think I used to work in some other company coz they thought I look experienced! Haha zai right.. *winks* Probably coz I don't look like a lost sheep, although I do admit I felt really lost in the first week of work. But as things pick up, and input of encouragements from my bosses, things seem to be moving and picking up speed. I'm heading to another office tmr for training, with some other new colleagues as well. YAWNS. Gona be a looonngg training I think..

It just dawned on me that the end of my university life is nearing, and I'll be embarking on a new journey all together. Work starts on the 20th May, in like one month's time. BOO. I'm glad that I've found a job amidst panickingly mugging hard for my last 3 papers and lastly, my FYP presentation on the 12th May. The end is neeeaarrrr.... Now, I'm counting down to my last paper: some open book exam, with MCQ such that marks will be awarded for one right answer and marks will be deducted with one wrong answer. Just how lame can that be may I ask? I've been slacking and surfing through websites for online sprees to purchase some new clothes for work. I guess its time to really start revamping my wardrobe, to an image I want to protray at work. Yes, in a male domineering environment. I'm gona stand out as a superwoman. HaHa. Check out the logo! =) also do check out anchor point with all the factory outlets stall! G2K, Giordano, Charles and Keith, Goldheart and even SK! Share with you a small secret: Janice (Xav sis) dragged me into the jewellery shops and made me try on the diamond rings! Celestial from Goldheart is nice! Haha. 0.7 carats looks good man. But price also scary! hahA like 10 plus thousand for that! She's gona hint to dear to faster propose to me la hAHa weird. It's interesting to know how supportive they are towards the both of us! =)